Boldness

Boldness can be a bit of a problem. For it is so easy to tell someone to be bold towards others, let alone to come boldly before God’s throne. Going to Him with all of your heart, it sounds so beautiful. Who does not want complete surrender?

But how do you do it? What does it mean? What is sometimes stopping me from completely yielding to Him?

What is stopping many of us to go to God’s throne without hesitation, worship God with confidence, go through life without shame?

Our own selves so often get in the way. Our own condemnation.

I will sometimes find myself in church, worshiping with abandon, feeling God’s presence, the anointing of the Holy Spirit … and all I know to do is fall to my knees and totally surrender to Him … . Yet I do not, I remain standing … .

Because, what will people think? I used to wonder at the people who actually knelt, who seemed oblivious of others around them … I thought that was weird, I did not get it and was judgmental about it. I even felt it was over the top.

But at the time I did not yet understand what it meant to boldly go to God, or what His love meant, and that He looks on the heart.

But I have long ago given up thinking it is over the top. Everyone can come to Him just as they are. I thoroughly enjoy seeing people completely giving themselves to God.

But yet, I still fail to kneel. Despite the fact that I really know what I know! That I can come to Him in complete surrender. That there is nothing about me to be ashamed of. That shame is so self-centered! ‘Perhaps people will think what I used to think?’

And because of that self-centeredness I fail to give God what He deserves … wholehearted, uninhibited, complete surrender, going to Him holding nothing back …

But … today I make a decision:

I shall not be led by my thoughts anymore, or my fears or condemnation. From this day forward I shall be led by the Holy Spirit! And I shall allow Him to fill me with His abundant love!

And when I fall to my knees … it will be because of His magnificence and my tininess!

Brenda